I always thought I'm the world's most blissful guy. I got a loving family, a gorgeous girlfriend, a bunch of great friends and supportive relatives.
I was an average student ever since primary school all the way till secondary school. I did my 'O' level with half the effort, the other half of it went to the most famous game at that time, Maplestory. But I still manage to pass and went to NYP SIT.
My academic made a comeback when just started my life in polytechnic. I studied hard, make sure I score for every test, always aiming for top in class and always push myself for project distinction presentation. My hard work paid off, I scored a GPA of 3.952, nominated to be in director list for 2 consecutive years and got a diploma in merit.
My relationship was a success to me too. I found her when I was in poly year 2, the one that I treasure her more than anyone, including myself. I always have this mindset that she one day will marry me and she shall be the one and only for me. My mind for her is set and never gonna be changed.
That was the best moment of my life. But things didn't stay the way they were. It's something that I never realise. Something that is always constant, change.
The Change
I'm not trying to blame anyone, nor blame "change". Because to me, that's life and I agreed to a strong extent. Just that, I wasn't prepared at all. I thought I had, but I didn't. Change of environment, change in level of freedom, change of different perspective, change in values and change of character all came in. I had a hard time managing them, I'm bad with decision making, so as a whole, bad decisions were made and poor life results came in.
She left me due to my poor decision making and communication. As a man, I take responsibility and apologise to her for all the mistake I'm done. I requested for a patch but she has no confidence for me anymore. I tried lots of ways to win her back, things got a little better but it was all too late, she found a new boyfriend, a new relationship...
My family were against my perception of a new business model and so they were against my business activity. I also lost best friends due to my unwillingness to make a change and move out of my comfort zone. All this were because of me, I take the responsibility.
I think I have reach the bottom of the stock market. Warren Buffett said, "What goes down, sure come up!". Melissa and Bendy said, if you reach the bottom and no where to go, it's time for you to rise up.
I hope it's the truth, and since it's the truth, there's no point looking back anymore. This shall be the last time I'm mentioning this story to myself. Move on bah, Junwei!
Lesson Learned: Don't dwell on the past, move on!
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